ABC Please
A: Accumulate positive experiences: I went to see Tans in Oxford, I went to at least two gigs since my last ABC,
B: Build mastery in activities that make you feel positive: I did climbing a couple of times, new to me, bloody hard, also keeping up with the running
C: Cope ahead: I'm working on this today to get things written up in my diary as future events
P: Physical illness prevention: This is hard to answer when I have a penic attack
L: low vulnerabbility ot diseases: again see above
E: Exercise regularly: Yes. I think this week I'll probably need to take it slow
A: AVoid mood altering drugs: that reminds me I have a biryani downstairs
S: Sleep healthy - Trying my best
E: Eat healthy: My bodyfat went up 0.1% in the past day. I dont think that's good, but its not the worst thing.
2024
Tucking. Lately I've been tucking. I've not 'lately' been doing it. I've been doing it since my balls dropped over 25 years ago. I never knew it was a gender thing until recently and now I do it's changed a lot of things for me. I guess that's kind of a big part of realising I'm nonbinary.
I should say for confirmation I still use he him pronouns and I'll refer to myself as a man. But ...I have to make space for something different inside me after this revelation. In recent weeks I've bought tucking tape and medical tape that I try to do the process myself. This week I tried the latter and the tape was really sticky and painful to remove.
What is tucking? for it me it means I need my balls in a lifted position (the one it was in before it dropped when I was 12-13 or so) because it feels more right to me. How can I explain that it feels right to me? Well after tucking I feel capable of doing 1300kcal+ workouts and still wanting to do more. I feel more myself than I ever have...in some ways. It does mean I'm dependent on wearing a pair of shorts all the time or else I don't feel that assurance or sense of self. I've become hooked on the increased abilities it gives me. It feels positive. I know some people will judge.
Achilles Schema goals achieved:
Get to 31.5% bodyfat (24/09/2023)
Get to 31.4% bodyfat (11/12/2023)
get t 31.3% bodoyfat (11/12/2023)
get to 31.2% bodoyfat (11/12/2023)
get to 31.1% bodyfat (11/12/2023)
Get to 31% bodyfat (24/09/2023)
get to 30.9% bodoyfat (11/12/2023)Get to 30.8% bodyfat (02/01/2024)
Get to 30.7% bodyfat (02/01/2024)
get to 30.6% bodyfat (02/01/2024)
... IT GOES ON
Weight,: 102kg (set 02/12/2022)
Body fat: 28%
get to 105.5kg (21/01/2024)
get to 98 kg
ABC Please: 09 March
A: Accumulate positive experiences: I met with J this week spontaneously
B: Build mastery in activities that make you feel confident and not helpless - I started playing piano again
C: Cope ahead: This is an area I am working on constantly but I think I'm better this week than I was last week
P: Physical illness prevention: I've had really low energy and ...possibly 'mia' has come back
L : Low vulnerability to diseases: I've been running myself down a lot
E: Exercise regularly: now here's something weird: I'm working out less this week, but my bodyfat is the lowest it's ever been and I'm possibly the fittest I've ever been in other ways. I've reached a new level in my physicality (just hit under 100kg), and I think the way I do things now is a bit different now I'm sub 100. Different weight class now
A: Avoid mood altering drugs: I don't think I had a deliveroo this week...ahh am I gonna get one tonight??
S: Sleep healthy: some insomnia, shotness of sleep but...I think the sleep has been good in the sense that my weight loss and bodyfat have not led to flare ups in that regards
E: Eat healthy --- i dont think I'm reliable on this. I have lost a *lot* of weight lately. The last time I lost weight this quickly was the terrible and unsayable panic problesm of 2017 and the 2007-2008 year when I had an eating disorder
My hopes for the future:
ABC PLease : 03 March 2024
A: Accumulate positive experiences - I do 121s with colleagues to check in on their wellbeing, I went on a wholesome day out yesterday with Caro and it was just affirming and fun
B: Build mastery in activities that make you fee lconfident and not helpless: I am working on clearing my backlog
C: Cope ahead: I think I'm struggling with this but I'm doing my best on this. Perhaps an area of improvement
P: Physicla illness prevention: I have been unwell lately
L : Low vulnerability to diseases: I think I might be doing badly with this
E: Exercise regularly: I'm exercising enough but I don't think I did as much as last week
A: Avoid mood altering drugs: I had a single guiness this week
S: Sleep healthy : I am trying not to work into the night
E: Eat healthy : I've lost weight and bodyfat lately. i rhink that's a good sign, right?
I've *really* lost a lot of weight and bodyfat.
